I don't want to think.
I fear how things will play out.
Like a bad dream.
Like a tragedy.
That's why I say, never rely on anyone except for yourself, and God.
Ideally, all you'd rely on would be God.
Times come when you must walk out your path alone.
Even in mist, in doubt, in trouble. Just move on. Move on.
Trudge forward, head bent against turbulent winds, against the sting of reality; the sense of living.
There's a short story in the book The Joy Luck Club.
A quote: "Then you must teach my daughter this same lesson. How to lose your innocence but not your hope. How to laugh forever."
If you think about it...That's a very valuable lesson to learn.
Know the evils of the world, but not let this knowledge affect your life and happiness.
Feels like this is the point where the line splits into two. Side by side, but different.
When you're traveling on this line, everything is different...focus, what you're aware of, what you must take into consideration. Maybe it'll merge with another again. But for now, the goal is to walk that line.
"'Now you see,' said the turtle, drifting back into the pond, 'why it is useless to cry. Your tears do not wash away your sorrows. They feed someone else's joy. And that is why you must learn to swallow your own tears.'"
"We all had our miseries. But to despair was to wish back for something already lost. Or to prolong what was already unbearable."
"We are lost, she and I, unseen and not seeing, unheard and not hearing, unknown by others."
"Your life is what you see in front of you."
"I felt like a rich vagabond who had passed through the world paving my way with gold fairy dust, then realizing too late that the path disintegrated as soon as I passed over it."
"They know where happiness lies, not in a cave or a country, but in love and the freedom to give and take what has been there all along."