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What the fuck am I doing with my life?
Seriously.
Whenever I think about the future, all I see in front of me is blank sheet of nothingness.
I have no desire to live; why should I continue?

whenever i think about the future
 
 
 

Home is a prison decorated with nice looking things

I hate so much
 
i hate and hate and hate and hate
 

Funny how things happen
Sigh..I haven't blogged in a while.
Not sure if you have heard about what happened Casey Wang, but wow....just goes to show that doing well academically doesn't mean you're smart.
And apparently a similar incident happened with Connie Chen. Heard from Nancy, who heard from her dad, who used to be colleagues with Connie Chen's dad, and maybe from an aquaintance...anyway, I don't know her personally, but she was Nancy's stand partner in youth orchestra.

So I haven't blogged for a while...well, the last time I did was this Monday, so that's pretty good.
This is just a random almagamation of things that have been happening, things that are going to happen, etc.
This will probably have no logical order lol.
Well, last night, I had a really strange dream. Apparently I was putting songs on iTunes or something for some of the time. And the only thing I remember putting on iTunes was some fictional song by the Pussy Cat Dolls featuring some guy group. Don't remember which group, or if it was even a real group, but they looked like gangsters lol. And I think there was one white guy. Hm...part of the dream also had to do with a mall, I think...

So Homecoming was yesterday.
It was actually pretty fun since I went with people that I know and we actually danced.
First I went to Danielle's house for pictures. We first took pictures on the porch as we waited for Nancy, Nick, and Eric to arrive.
Nancy and Nick came soon, and we figured that Eric probably went with Shareen's group, so we left to take more pictures outside, near a lake with a fountain thing.

 
 
Tell Me Goodbye
Sigh today...soo long...

 
 
I was looking back on posts that I had written in the "Nothings" category.
And you know what I learned?

 
 
I slept so much yesterday.
My life is so irregular...there's barely any routine in it at all, besides the bare bones of waking up, going to school, coming back, then going to sleep eventually. Repeat.