☼ Find Me, Fix Me

So I just back from the doctor's.

Apparently they think I have the mono virus.

I'm not sure where I'd have gotten it from if I really have/had it.

Apparently it's usually transmitted by oral fluid (like saliva).

For example, sharing drinks.

But it's still uncertain whether or not I have mono.

I feel terrible. All this school work isn't going to go away. I can't even do anything about it.

And there isn't a cure for the virus, and no way to speed up th healing process.

Apparently a person could still not feel better for two weeks...four weeks....and for some, even months.

Maybe I don't have it though. Maybe it's just stress. And bottled up anger.

I have to go to LabCorp to get a blood test.

I hate those things...they just draw out your blood and you see it in this little container.

It's not that I'm afraid of blood. No, I'm not hemophobic.

And it's not like I've never seen my own blood before. Heck, I've even tasted it before.

And it's not like I've never had my blood drawn.

It's just seeing it in that little tube or whatever they put it in...

It's like they're measuring or studying a part of yourself and the part of you that is human.

Sigh, I think I'm thinking about it too much.

I just hope I won't miss any more days of school.

Oh well, who cares?

Whatever happens, happens.

And whatever happens, I deserve it.