☼ Find Me, Fix Me

I try to talk, but I may as well be mute.

You try to listen, but you may as well be deaf.

I don't think that I'm not making sense.

And I really don't understand how you couldn't see somethig so clearly laid out in front of you.

You care too much.

You try to be emotionless, but let's face it, you fail.

Your personality isn't like that.

You try to control your emotions, but your emotions control you.

Gentle talk and convincing don't seem to work.

It's nothing.

It's nothing.

It's nothing.

How many times do I have to tell you that?

How many times have I already done so?

Much too many to count.

Why would you think that complaining about your health and saying that you feel bad would make us believe that you're "fine?"

Does that ever make any sense?

I'm trying not to be rude, but you need a wake up call.

You need to decide and think for yourself. About yourself.

Life isn't something to joke about and health isn't something that you give and take freely.

Whether this whole thing will blow over or not doesn't matter.

But if it does, at least you know that you've dealt with it.

Do what you have to do.

In fact, at this point, just do what you want to do.

But think about it.

Don't go by your emotions.

Just think about it.

Use your brain.

Listen.

Open your mind.

Or else helping you is like banging on a steel door.

It's not that I don't care anymore.

I still do.

Just that whatever you do, and whatever you're thinking...I don't care.

I don't care. And I won't.

All I can do now is hope and pray that you wake up soon.

All of this is just inside your head. What the situation is really like depends on how you perceive things.

You can risk your physiological health, your psychological and physical health.

You can choose to face everything.

You can choose to run away.

But whatever you choose, you chose. And you must deal with the consequences and think about the intelligence in your decision. Or lack of, although I would hope not.

Everything is permissible, but not everything is wise.

Choose one direction.

Never look back.

If you look back, you'll stumble on the obstacles along the way.

If you look back, you won't be able to see what good things may be ahead.